I'm not sure who came up with this phrase - but I'm sure they couldn't have been a very happy person. To "expect the unexpected" is to worry all the time about something you cannot control, predict or do anything to prevent. I feel like I certainly WAS this person during my pregnancy - always trying to prepare for the unknown. But I learned to ignore this phrase soon after Jet was born. God took care of us in ways we could not and I have been content to just take one day and a time since. And in that mind-frame I have been exceedingly happy with how everything has turned out. However, today - happy was hard for a little bit.
Today we went in for a routine check-up with our neurosurgeon and 4 hours, 4 waiting rooms and one CT scan later we were told news we had always hoped to avoid - our Jet needs a shunt. The CT scan showed the fluid on his brain is increasing and though in the past we were told it was minimal - today I guess we crossed that line where Jet is no longer better off without the shunt - now it is better to have one. While the doctor says he looks great (no real symptoms of fluid pressure or effects on his brain tissue - praise God.) the fluid is growing and Jet's head is growing and the doc says it is time to drain that fluid. We handled the news well from the neuro, asked the usual questions, thanked him as always. Then he left us and the tears came. For me anyway. :) It is so hard to swallow news like this. I thought I was prepared. I knew it could happen. I thought I EXPECTED it! But I guess I didn't and it totally breaks my heart. Jet was of course happy in the arms of Daddy. And as I am processing this change of events, I realized I cannot truly process and persevere without prayer.
So I am asking for prayers - prayers that we will remain thankful for all God has done for us and thankful for this age and country we live in where Jet can be helped by capable doctors. Prayers for strength and peace this coming Monday 11/30 when Jet is scheduled to have the shunt surgery. Prayers of protection and healing for our little boy (that the surgery will be successful and no infection will set in). And prayers for trust and wisdom as we watch for any problems in the future...but not so watchful that we worry too much.
So we know what to expect -
From the doctors who have outlined the surgery for us.
From our friends who have shared this same experience.
From our family who has always supported and cared for us.
And from our GOD who has never forsaken us.
And knowing this, we are able to face the future (and the unexpected) without fear.
Thank you for your prayers.
Love ~ Joanna, David and Jet