I'm not sure when it happened...
It sneaks up on you in a way that's hard to explain...you know it's coming...but you're still surprised when it does...
That change from tiny baby to little boy...almost overnight...
It's so gradual, subtle changes here and there, that suddenly you blink and "whoa..."
Even the nursery feels different...
Books that once neatly lined the shelves are scattered about in such disarray...
... that you're convinced he must be learning something...
If nothing else...how to make a really good mess...
A tiny mobile over the crib (that has been silent for quite some time now) knows it's days are numbered...that in less than a week a two-year-old will be sleeping here...and that all too soon, there will be a big-boy-bed in it's place...
There are signs of babyhood still lurking...and I think they still fit nicely...
And there are somethings that will never, ever, leave his room...ever...
But the "baby Jason Mraz" hat he wore a few weeks ago is resting casually on the lamp shade...and it whispers to me about growing up...
And I'm certain the puzzle pieces know they are no longer in danger of being chewed on...only misplaced in the mess.
A friend of mine asked recently "where's the pause button?"
I wish I knew...
But in the mean time, I'm just going to keep soaking up each minute - taking pictures with my eyes and with my heart. Remembering each day is a blessing. Even those days where the naps are too short, "no" means "I dare you" and the only acceptable meal choice is goldfish crackers and chocolate milk....even on those days...I will try my best to take a deep breath, give my worries up, and keep my perspective. Treasuring each moment (the "good", the "bad", and the "are you kidding me!?") for the miracles they are...for they are all a part the miracle of life.
This precious, ever-changing, don't blink,
turn-around-and-your-baby's-a -little boy...
Life.
7 comments:
My sweet Caleb turns SIX in August! I just can't wrap my brain around that.
I can't believe it either! He's grown up so fast. How long are you going to let that "J" be crooked on the wall??? LOL :)
Ah, the pause button. If only. Girl, I hear ya. Nate is officially in a big boy bed...and I can't stand it! I think the only thing keeping me sane about Nate growing up is that there is another little one on the way. Hint, hint. ;)
TWO years old?!?!? I am really starting to fear the fact that Beckett will be ONE in just a little over a month. Starting to panic actually.
Of course this post, like so many others, made me cry, because it hits so close to home. Beckett crawled into Paisley's room this week. She could hardly believe what was happening! I do just want to press pause for just a bit. I am so ready for summer to soak up the sun and be out of school for a little while (only 7 kid days left). I fully intend to enjoy our days together and make some memories.
I love this post. So brutal and so beautiful.
Ughhhhh....!!! They grow up too fast! My solution has always been to have another baby! LOL! But, alas, even that has to come to an end and then what? Count down for grandbabies. ;)
Oh my GOSH do you have an adorable kid!
I've missed you during your blogging hiatus (just so you know).
I think you have as close to a pause button as you can get with your camera and blog! And loving every minute!
Big Boy room/bed - how exciting!
Post a Comment