Today it snowed. Beautiful, bright, fluffy snow. It made the children squeal with delight in the class where I was a substitute teacher today (for the first time :)). It made the teachers hope for a snow day tomorrow probably more than the kids. It made me excited to drive home and take Jet outside for his first snow. And it was while driving home enjoying the snow that I heard a song on the radio. It was a song I'd heard before but like all songs you have that moment where you realized you've never really "heard" it before until now. The song was by Third Day (a great band with great lyrics to their songs) and it struck me today more than past times. Today as it turns out is the anniversary of the day we were told our baby had spina bifida. It was a horrible day full of fear, doubt, tears and questioning. It was a day I looked up to God and said "How do I do this?", "What do you want me to do?" and even more "Why?" We were broken. But God healed us. The days and months to follow were a testament to His love, power, mercy and His Plan. We didn't know what to expect. He exceeded our expectations. We didn't know what to do. He did everything we could not. We weren't sure how to move forward in our hour of darkness. He provided a Light. So today when I heard this song in the car and watched the snow fall lightly as I sat at stoplights, then whirl around me as I drove through flurry-dusted streets, I was teary-eyed. I saw light all around me when a year ago I was drowning in darkness. I felt excitement and peace to replace the previous dread and uncertainty. It was like the blanket of snow was a symbol of the renewal God gave to our lives. He healed our baby and blessed us beyond measure. When I got home to see Jet, the snow swirled outside the windows. I picked him up and never felt so warm.
These are the lyrics to the song:
"My life has led me down the road that's so uncertain
Now I am left alone and I am broken
Trying to find my way
Trying to find the faith that's gone
This time I know that you are holding all the answers
I'm tired of losing hope and taking chances
On roads that never seem
To be the ones that bring me home
Give me a revelation
Show me what to do
'Cause I've been trying to find my way
I haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without you
I've got nothing without you
My life has led me down this path that's ever winding
Through every twist and turn, I'm always finding
That I am lost again
Tell me when this road will ever end
I don't know where I can turn
Tell me, when will I learn
Won't you show me where I need to go
Let me follow your lead
I know that it's the only way that I can get back home
Give me a revelation
Show me what to do
'Cause I've been trying to find my way
I haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without you
I've got nothing without you
Father Thank You for this Day. Thank You for Your promises. Thank you for Your faithfulness. Thank You for these reminders. Thank you for our little miracle.
Did I mention this was Jet's first snow. :) Beautiful.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!
Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!
